TheManInTheMask123

this recent inactivity has been me vigorously practicing and you most likely wont see anything from me for maybe even a year, I have decided to start just drawing an illustration a day in my notebook but not upload it, seeming as i think it has to be high quality to upload so I don't start it or finish it and throw it away because I'm too scared, this is a lot of rambling but I don't know. in summary I will not be uploading for about a year but I will still be vigorously practicing and hopefully when I do upload it should be improved to how it was I still don't know, my mind will probably change but so far I'm not planning on uploading anyth

i take out my notepad and I stare, deep into the blank page thinking of all the things I could put down onto it, my mind full of ideas but I'm too scared scared of what you may ask? scared that the drawing will be bad and a waste of time so I don't do anything then I think fuck it i'll improve I draw something its not good enough I erase it I start again this happens on repeat for about maybe a full day and at the end of the day I have nothing but a blank page and tear rolling out of my eyes I'm so stressed, scared, depressed, lacking motivation I just cant do it and for this whole week I've been trying to at least  make one illus